Happy Day....

Well, it is finally the weekend. It has been a really long, difficult week. My grandpa died last Friday night and the viewing and funeral were in Iowa this past week. I rarely miss school, but I took 3 personal days to go up and grieve. The funeral was nice and peaceful and it was good to spend time with my mom and grandma and family; I have accepted the fact that he is in a better place and is at peace, but it still sucks.

Once I came back to school, the kids were nuts. They are out of control and being really rude and shitty! I am trying to stay patient, but sometimes I just can't stand their callous behavior. They treat eachother and the teachers like crap just because there aren't any real consequences for them. They don't realize that the behaviors they develop now will follow them through high school and beyond; I hope they are able to mature quite a bit before high school. There are about 20 of the 200 that I will really miss next year....that makes me sad that I won't miss more of them.

On a positive note, I passed my comps for grad school and it looks as if I will in fact be graduating May 1. I am super excited. I have to finish my portfolio, a portfolio paper, my practicum - 3 videos with 3 papers for each of them, and a social/culture paper. I stayed at school until 7:45 tonight with the plan to complete some of this, but I worked on planning instead. My jump drive wouldn't open on my school computer....un-oh.....could that be a major problem?????? I'll be fuming! It will all work out though. I can finish all my menial tasks this weekend, study this week for the Praxis this coming weekned, and graduate May 1.....then I am done for a while....woo hoo!

I guess that is all for now......enough venting and ranting and raving....life is too short, right? I'm sure I'll be back on the graduation note.....maybe I should be doing that now instead of blogging? :) Hmmmmm....

The Future

So, my teacher came by to see me at school today to touch base about my practicum in counseling.....and she thinks that I should really be searching for a counseling job for next year. She says I am good with the kids and that I can get them to open up and they trust me. I agree, but I don't want to leave where I am. I brushed it off and just said that I wasn't ready....life has been too hectic this year, but in reality, I LOVE my job! I teach amazing kids who make me laugh and cry and get angry and feel love for every day! Seriously....every single day there is someone who makes me laugh - usually a lot of those - and a few who make me cry (their lives suck sometimes and sometimes they are just awful people to others) and someone who makes me angry (usually the last hour of the day when I am exhausted) and someone who I love (because so many of them just need someone who cares about them because their home lives suck!). So, because I love my job, I don't want to change jobs.....I want to keep doing what I am doing because I think I am good at it and I am making a difference in their lives right now.....so why stop? I've also worked for administrators in the past that were less than supportive and didn't love their jobs or the kids.....and frankly, I am scared to leave a good job for something that could potentially be awful...especially with this job market. For now....I am staying put! It's been may years in the making where I can say I am blessed in many ways....including my job! Today - I love my life!

Advanced Ed Psych Midterm

Well, I had my first Advanced Ed Psych midterm today. I am a bit nervous because I didn't think it was as difficult as I thought it would be. When I think that, usually it means that I do a crappy job. I really felt like I knew the material and I think most of my answers were strong and filled with details. Hopefully they were the correct answers and accurate exampels. :)

I am supposed to be moving today, but it is pouring! It is supposed to be raining tomorrow too. What is this crap? I have tons of things to do and very little time.... yet I have to put it all on hold due to the weather.

Enough on that... time to finish packing.

One week down....seven to go!

Well, my first week of grad school is over. It was incredibly exhausting. This week I have a midterm, three papers, and one couseling lesson due as well as the regular 3-5 chapters of reading per night. Most chapters are around 30 pages, mind you. Who am I? Superwoman? Actually, I spent a majority of my weekend working on my papers and finished my lesson plan tonight... now if I can just buckle down and prepare for my test and stay up on my current reading. On top of it all, I am in the process of moving this week. What in the hell was I thinking. More on that later.... I can't wait for the move to be over and to be settled in my new place. On the plus side, I only have 7 weeks of summer school left and then I am off to San Diego! Woo Hoo! Off to finish my reading.

The beginning of Grad School....

Oftentimes I wonder if I am making a huge mistake trying to continue my education... the loans and the stress and the homework and the reading and the communte with the cost of gas. What am I doing? I try to remind myself that I chose this and I will follow through with it and I will be great at it. Today was day 2 and I am avoiding my homework like the plague. I have been home for 3 hours and I have managed to get my books out on the couch next to me, but as of yet, I have not opened them. I have watched crap tv and eaten dinner and checked my email.... what else can I do to tie up some time or procrastinate before forcing myself to dive into the exciting material I've been asked to read by my professors? Crap! Well, I'm not much of a blogger (can't you see why?)

I'm off to study.